It’s weird how there are some things you don’t want to be reminded of, but don’t want to forget either. The emotions they bring, are the emotions you miss, but it’s the feeling of missing them which puts you in a spot.
Just got a call from JustDial. They keep calling from time to time, to keep their database of professionals updated, in this case of my mother. But one thing they’ve failed to update is that she not with us anymore, for a while now. But I guess their database doesn’t have an option to update that, so they keep calling.
But how does that make me feel ? To be reminded of her absence, it surely doesn’t feel nice. But it does make me proud of her accomplishments. It feels nice to imagine that some people might still be clicking on her profile, hoping to get helped. Leave other aside, the fact that JD still keeps her in their directory, it feels good. It feels she’s still there, in digital memory and real.
So everytime I get that call, I feel all of it, all at once. Some feelings I don’t want to have, some feelings I don’t want to lose. So when today I told the agent to not call again, as I’ve done it a lot of times before, she hung up, and my heart sank. What if she really does it, what if I don’t get a call again? Do I really not want to get that call?
I really hope, they call again.
Think It Yourself 